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[Jun. 13th, 2005|02:23 pm]
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My uncle Gerry hit o me. It was about 3am and we were drinking heavily. I don’t think that I have ever been so drunk in my life. I think I had about 17 beers. BEER!!!! I don’t even drink beer normally. I was downing beers like it was water. I would drink them without taking a breath. I was impressed about how fast I could slam them back. Ok a little tip for everyone, slamming back booze makes you very drunk very fast. Any way, I was so drunk that the world was spinning. Me and Gerry were both shitfaced. I lay on the ground because I was dizzy. And next thing I knew Uncle Gerry was spooning with me and saying that I was a dyke because I have never fully experienced a man. I felt his erection on my backside and I was so drunk there was nothing I could do. He was grinding against me and saying stuff like ‘don’t you want my cock deep inside of you’. I was so drunk that all I could do was say no, stop. He stopped after a while, but I was so worried that he wouldn’t.

Ok just a note: perkiset, alcohol and pot don’t mix when taken together.

Heidi is still in the hospital. I am out of respite, and I am still so destructive. I want to be somewhere safe. I am feeling a little safer, and I am going to do the partial hospitalization program. That will be really good. I am excited about that. Anyway, have you ever know someone is a soul mate of yours and you know that you cant be with them…let me tell you it hurts. It is killing me.

Graduation was good. I wore my wig and it was fun I had a good time. I got to smack wataru. Yeah. I am no longer in high school. WEEEE!

Susan thinks the state failed me by putting me in home with two moms. She says that doing so threw another issue into the mix, and made thing more difficult for me, and messed me up more then I already was. The thing that I think she is missing is that they are the best thing that ever happened to me. They have been there for me when others would have turned their backs on me. They are amazing and I owe who I am to them.

I feel like I am going crazy sometimes. I hear voices that are not my own. Not to sound psychotic. I talked to my therapist and My physiatrist and they both said that it was just me experiencing my thought differently then I every have before. I hear word and phrases in my head that are from another source then my own thoughts. I hear a hissing voice mainly telling me how bad I am. Also I hear this soft crying voice as well pleading for me to rethink my choices. Whatever that means.

[User Picture]From: bichick126
2005-06-13 02:29 pm (UTC)
that's why you don't down 17 beers and mix pot, and perks with it...17 beers is enough.....
love you lots
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From: (Anonymous)
2005-06-20 12:37 pm (UTC)
Erica this is some one who was there that night u are a freak that shit never happened why would u lie like that about carols husband, u need to get some help. u should think about getting instituted.
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[User Picture]From: heir_ika
2005-06-23 10:46 am (UTC)
I am sorry that you are ignorant enough to think that I am making this up. If you were at the party, you know what happened when I was young. I am not one to lie about that kind orf thing. I just got out of the hospital. And part of the reasons that I was there is that uncle gerry was actin inaprotpiate around me. He cam on to me and I am sorry that you are too blind to accept that this happened. I think also yuou dont want to go back to where i was and what happed when I was little. I know when a man is taling or touching inappritiate. Also, throwing insults at me is very imature. It doesnt get you any where to do that, exept to burn bridges. If you dont state your name and comment again...you will be deleted within 2 secs.
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From: (Anonymous)
2005-06-20 12:42 pm (UTC)
erica, you need to cut the shit. im not acising u, it's just that you think you think all you need in your life is drama but u don't need so much, i was there last night yet i still don't understand why u thought snorting was right. But jerry is just another fucked up prick who has a major achohol abuse problem, so just cut the shit please, for your brother
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[User Picture]From: heir_ika
2005-06-23 10:49 am (UTC)
to bring my brother into this is a low blow. Snorting the perks was not a good thing at all. I was too drunk to refuse. I gues you could say that I sucumed to peer pressure. IT is true, I look for drama, but I dont make up stoies.
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From: (Anonymous)
2005-06-24 04:45 am (UTC)
jj said the first note. Jr went to your site he wrote the secound comment.
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